Life Rearranges Itself

After the RK Narayan Readalong, I didn’t intend to take a break from blogging. But, sometimes, one starts watching what one eats or controls the portions without preparing oneself for it. When friends ask if one is dieting, the answer is usually, “Not really. But I think, yes.” That’s what happened to me. IΒ simply lost the appetite for writing.

When Delia asked me once, why I write, I said, “When I am insanely chased by a thought, I write to liberate myself from it. I have to blog about that pressing idea to move on with life. If I resist, the thought would almost sabotage my universe’s equilibrium.” No thought chased me. So, I went on a hiatus.

Did I miss writing? Yes. Did I agonise over not having the urge to write? Yes. A wee bit. Did I try hard? No. But all was well with life all the same. πŸ™‚

Now that I am back here, IΒ must tell you what I have been reading.

April:
Franny and Zooey by JD Salinger
The Thing Is by Kathleen Gerard
Zen Animals: Creative Tangled Animal Designs by Abby Olivia Collins
The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath
Me and Kaminski by Daniel Kehlmenn
The Bridges of Madison County by Robert James Waller
The Library of Unrequited Love by Sophie Divry
Simon Vs. The Homo Sapiens Agenda by Becky Albertalli

May:
The World of Nagaraj by RK Narayan
One Amazing Thing by Chitra Banerjee Divakaruni
The Guide by RK Narayan
A Thousand Splendid Suns by Khaled Hosseini ❀
Adulthood is a Myth by Sarah Anderson

9781447294825And, and, and, I finished reading Hanya Yanagihara’s A Little Life last night. I am supposed to be excited; I am going on a 5-week vacation next weekend. But I am utterly devastated. So devastated that I am not able to begin my next book. So devastated that I am Zen-doodling to deal with this singular sorrow. Because A Little Life was beautifully dark. So dark that now every brightness seems blinding. ❀

Also, I realised that I haven’t lost my love for big books. Yaay! πŸ™‚

So where am I going? I am going to the US to visit my sister, brother-in-law, and my nephew.Β They live in Dallas. So we are planning to travel around Texas.

And, for the first time, I am going to travel alone. That is, IΒ will spend some time all by myself in Chicago. Just me. This time, last year, I was battling depression and anxiety; when I was frantically cleaning the house, owing to anxiety, I didn’t know that I would be able to afford a 5-week vacation,Β an adventure in Chicago, and a reunion with my sister in a year. Now I remind myself that things do get better after all.

β€œ…things get broken, and sometimes they get repaired, and in most cases, you realize that no matter what gets damaged, life rearranges itself to compensate for your loss, sometimes wonderfully.”
― A Little Life byΒ Hanya Yanagihara,

My nephew is now a graduate. *clears throat πŸ˜‰

He has moved from Elementary to Middle School. So I did a doodle to congratulate him.

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I haven’t been doodling a lot these days. However, I so wanted to do something for Harambe. 😦 ❀

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How have you been? What are you reading? Please let me know. πŸ™‚

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49 thoughts on “Life Rearranges Itself

  1. I’d like to read A Little Life but the descriptions of its darkness put me off a little. I’m sure I’ll read it one day though as I won’t be able to resist. I hope you have a very enjoyable trip to America – sounds exciting.

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  2. Oh you know how happy I am to have you back, but of course I understand the need for breaks (sometimes I don’t blog for months!). Love that all was well with you even if you weren’t writing and those doodles are fantastic! I think I will read A Little Life when I am at my happiest, so the rsulting depressing won’t be as horrible! And I need to catch up and read Divakaruni’s newer books, she’s still one of my fave authors.
    Sad I don’t live in the US so we could meet but I wish you a grand time with family and exploring Chicago!! Have a safe trip πŸ™‚

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    1. Awwww! Thank you, Bina! πŸ™‚

      ‘A Little Life’ is a terrific book. I look forward to hearing your thoughts on it.

      ‘One Amazing Thing’ was my first Divakaruni’s book. I loved it. There were quite a few cliches, but the book had a beautiful heart. And her writing is lyrical. She reminds me of some of my favourite Middle East writers.

      I will think of you when I visit bookish places in the US. And I will save to visit Germany sometime. You should also come to Chennai. It’s hot. But you will like Chennai. πŸ™‚ ❀

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  3. It is good to see you back.

    Life often gets in the way of blogging.

    Congratulations to your nephew.

    It looks as if you read some great books in the interim.

    Have a great time in your future travels.

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  4. Welcome back! Wish I could meet you in Dallas but I am a few states away. Enjoy your trip and do share your pictures with us!

    I am glad that you have been reading tons! Those are some great books.

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  5. I hope you enjoy Dallas and have fun travelling alone. I think it’s good to travel alone sometimes and I sometimes take myself on short excursions.
    I’m doing good. I also to a short break from blogging too because life got busy but hopefully I’m back.

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  6. Welcome back! Love your pictures, you’re very talented. Those zentangle things and black-and-white doodling in general remind me of blackwork in cross-stitching (which also reminds me I have half a blackwork project done …). I’ve not fancied A Little Life but it IS good to see people reading Big Books. I’m on David Kynaston’s social history of Britain 1957-62 at the moment, and that’s BIG, and I also have some large ones coming up. Hooray!

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  7. Have fun on your holiday, Deepika. I hope it’s an amazing one.
    I was just thinking about your doodles.
    Poor Harambe, I get sad every time I think about that story. What a stupid death….

    I started reading The Elegance of the Hedgehog recently. I’m in two minds about it.

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  8. Happy to have you back, Deepika!
    I see you’ve read several great books while you were away and a couple more Narayan ones as well. Are you close to reading his completed works or is the list too long to finish any time soon?

    I hope you have a wonderful time in Chicago. :]

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  9. I love that cover of A Little Life so much more than the one I read. And you’re not alone…I had a horrible book hangover after finishing that novel. I couldn’t imagine what else I could read that would impact me so strongly. It will pass- I read really fluffy stuff for awhile and then was ready to get back into the deeper books.

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  10. The graduation doodle that you made for your nephew is charming. He must be so pleased that his Aunt made such a special drawing for him.
    I know from your posts that you are in the. US now….loved your thoughts after you arrived at the airport and the heart shaped balloon that your sister brought you floated skyward, as if to say, on this trip the sky is the limit!
    If you become weary on your solo days contact me, and if I am in town you can fly out west to visit! I spent many layovers in Chicago when I was a flight attendant for United Airlines. Enjoy exploring! If you begin to feel quite far away and maybe a little homesick, just remember that we all see the same moon in the sky!

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  11. I also meant to comment on your reading list. So impressive since I mostly audiobook. “A Little Life”…what do you think? Should I read it? I am drawn towards it, but like a magnet, when it is turned it repels….

    I hope you are sleeping now! My dog likes to wake me. at night so once again I am up now.

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  12. You’re in US? That’s awesome. I so wish you were visiting closer to Virginia. Nonetheless, I hope you have a wonderful trip. And I would love to read about your solo trip to Chicago. I have always wanted to go on a trip by myself, but so far, haven’t even gone to a movie alone. Sigh. Someday..

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